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Name: Flygon Pirate...but everyone calls me "Flygon" for short.

Interests: Games (especially TF2 and Pokemon), drawings, Garry's Mod, Role-Playing, Ezio Auditore (from AC II, Brotherhood, and Revalations)

Favourite movies: How to Train Your Dragon (1+2), Wreck-It-Ralph, The Illusionist (2006), Beetlejuice, Rescuers Down Under, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Young Frankenstein, Pokémon Origins, Clue, Pacific Rim, Frozen, Rango, The Hobbit (Peter Jackson's versions), The Lego Movie (2014), Godzilla (2014), Maleficent (2014),

Favorite TV Shows: Criminal Minds, Samurai Jack, *OLD* Spongebob Squarepants episodes (Season 1-3), Elementary, Mystery Theater 3000, Big Bang Theory, NCIS, The Crazy Ones, How It's Made, MythBusters,

Favourite genre of music: Movie/video game soundtracks, techno, rock, classical, Celtic, traditional Japanese music, instrumental world music

Favourite artist: Anyone that has art that has really good TF2, HTTYD, L4D, Assassin's Creed, Portal, and Pokemon fan art...as well as dragon artwork and a few other things.

Favourite photographer: ...A photographer that can take really good pictures.

Favourite style of art: Anything that catches my attention, really.

MP3 player of choice: A good, working MP3 player that will hold all of my music.

Wallpaper of choice: Anything TF2, Dragons, Pokemon, Assassin's Creed (ESPECIALLY with Ezio), Portal, L.A. Noire, Red Dead Redemption...just any wallpaper that sparks my interests. :)

Skin of choice: Mine. Duh.

Favourite games: Team Fortress 2, Pokemon, Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, Left 4 Dead (1+2), Portal 2, Garry's Mod, Assassin's Creed (All of them), Spore, L.A. Noire, Animal Crossing series, Conker's Bad Fur Day, Red Dead Redemption, Sinistar, Super Smash Bros. series, The Sims series, Donkey Kong 64, Mystical Ninja: Staring Goemon, Kingdom Hearts (I-II), FallOut: New Vegas, MineCraft, Super Mario 64, Super Mario World, Paper Mario, Banjo-Kazooie and Tooie, Yoshi Story, Spore, Goat Simulator (2014),

Favourite gaming platform: Anything...but I love the Xbox 360, 3DS, and Nintendo 64...

Favourite Characters: Ezio Auditore da Firenze (Assassin's Creed 2 through Revelations), McLeach (Rescuers Down Under), Toothless (How to Train Your Dragon), Paarthunax (Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim), Engineer (Team Fortress 2), Cheshire Cat (American McGee Alice in Wonderland and Alice: Madness Returns), John Marston (Red Dead Redemption), Wheatley (Portal 2), Smaug the Dragon (Peter Jackson's version), Rattlesnake Jake (Rango), N (Pokémon Black and White), Dracula/Gabriel Belmont (Castlevania: Lords of Shadow 2)

Personal Quote: "Ezio Auditore is the best addiction to have. He's like crack, except he's sexy, irresitable, and not bad for my health." 8D ~<3

Tools of the Trade: Colored pencils and imagination :iconimaginationplz:

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FlygonPirate
Flygon Pirate
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
This is my profile obviously. Haven't updated this thing in a while...so...

I am depressed and lonely as fuck. I feel like nothing really matters to me anymore, I believe everyone doesn't want to be around me, I hate myself very much, and I feel so utterly hopeless. I have accepted this because I'm lonely...yet I do get annoyed around other people. Basically, I'm an impossible wallflower to be around. Don't try to stick around to help me, I'm NOTHING MORE THAN A WASTE OF TIME!!!! Oh, and if I am filler for your friend list, kindly remove me...BECAUSE CLEARLY I AM COMPLETELY USELESS TO EVERYONE!!! Obviously, I have conflicting issues and I'm not really the happiest of people anymore. So don't try to convince me that "everything is okay". Because it isn't, and I'm no longer in the mood to be played as a fool. Hell, I am no longer in the mood to joke around and shit...so if I seem angry, bitter, and unlikeable....that's why. If you are honest and say that I really am unlikeable and a lost cause, I will applaud for your sincere honesty and will hold no grudge against you....unless you rub it in my face like a dick...then we'll have some problems.

I usually draw traditional artwork. My works usually includes characters from How to Train Your Dragon, Pokémon, and various other things I can draw. I mostly draw Dragons. I KNOW I am not the best artists, hell, I think I'm mediocre at best. You've seen how lazily I color backgrounds because when I actually "try" to draw backgrounds, it looks godawful.

My favorite fandoms include Skyrim/Elder Scrolls (Mostly Skyrim), How to Train Your Dragon, Pokémon, and Assassin's Creed. There are other things I like, but I'm not going to take the time to name every single one of them.

***PLEASE DO NOT ASK FOR POINTS, ART REQUESTS, COMMENT ABOUT SELF-ADVERTISING OR ASK FOR WATCHES. I WILL IGNORE ALL OF THOSE AND HIDE THESE COMMENTS. IF YOU KEEP THIS UP, I WILL BLOCK YOU WITH NO WARNING***

I will do:

-Art Trades
-PayPal Commissions

That's it. So do NOT ask for requests if you want art from me done. I will say no. I don't care how much you beg, I will NOT do free requests or point commissions. SO QUIT ASKING!!!!!
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I am a Monster

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 30, 2015, 11:42 AM
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Look what I have become. Look at the damage I have caused. Look at all the people I have hurt. Look at what I have done...

Fuck...I feel so horrible. I feel that I have gone too low to recover from.

I do not ask for forgiveness, because I don't deserve it anymore. I only ask that you understand what hell I am going through.

Obviously, you see me as an ungrateful, heartless, arrogant bitch. I see it too. I don't blame you for thinking that.

I bet saying sorry isn't going to cover for what I have done today. I was angry and let hate blind me when I wrote the "I don't fucking care" journal. I do care, I'm just too cowardly to admit I need help.

Look at everyone who is actually trying to help me...how selfish and cruel of me not to see what is going on. Perhaps it is genuine concern or just a ruse to get me to shut up. I can't tell anymore. My paranoia and depression has consumed me and my judgment is quite poor these days.

Say what you want about me. I really don't care about that. But let me explain why I am acting so irrationally and have been so angry and hateful recently. And I will do this as calmly and as maturely as I can.

June 2012, the first time I wrote and posted a self-hating journal. The response was heartwarming and I really did believe that people cared. I felt like there was hope after all. Why is that feeling no longer there? Why am I pushing you good people away?

It's kind of oblivious that I have been picked on before by countless bastards. But the straw that snapped the back in half was when a close friend, who I have known for years, suddenly bullied me and lashed out against me. Not only was I angry to my boiling point, but I was heartbroken above all else. This was someone I called my best friend, who I was loyal to, who I trusted...and they were cruel and heartless enough to betray me...not once, but twice. After we somehow made up, she lied to me again and cared not for how I felt. That was when I realized...I was being played as an idiot. So I basically told her, "FUCK YOU! WE ARE DONE!" and I pulled the plug of that relationship. She was dead to me from then on. It did hurt...it really did hurt. I know I shouldn't say who it was, but she does have an account here (although it's not used anymore)...but let's call her GalacticDragon. Because of what she did to me, my feelings for her are dead and hateful. I will never forgive for what crimes she has committed against me.

Not soon after, I have noticed another close friend suddenly not talk to me anymore like we used to. I mean, we were super close and were basically two peas in a pod. But it was sad to see that we were not talking like we used to. I felt like it was my fault...that I was a burden to her. So, I had to tell her, "I'm sorry for being a burden to you, I will leave you in peace." It was heartbreaking to do...and I haven't heard from her since...maybe she did think I was a burden and stopped caring for me.

I have a hard time keeping friends anymore. Why? Because when people do say that they are my friend, they seem to talk to me for like five minutes before suddenly ceasing all contact with me. I exaggerate of course, I mean that these people will have interest in me for a few days...then stop for a month, then come back for a day, then never return. And this has been a reoccurring thing to everyone I meet. You could argue that I need to actually talk to them back, but I'm too much of a coward to start any conversation up. Either way, I always assume the worst and think that these people have moved on and found better people to talk to.

Now you see why I have a hard time trusting anyone anymore? Do you see why I try to warn you that I am a lost cause. Hell, I heard some people admit that. Disappointing, but at least I heard the truth.

When I "push" people away who are trying to help, I'm not ungrateful or being rude. I legitimately believe that I'm not worth anyone's time due to the constant bad experiences I have. I really do believe I am a useless third wheel in groups. So, in order to make everyone happier, I remove myself to balance the equation. That's how I see it. It's to prevent heartbreak. It's to prevent disappointment. I never intend to hurt anyone's feelings. I am just scared and fear history will repeat itself, no matter what people say.

So, I do not ask for you to forgive me. I do not ask you to be my friend anymore. I don't deserve any of that anymore. I only wish for you to see how I see why socializing is a losing gamble.

Like I said before, I am a monster...asking for forgiveness is now meaningless. If you all want, I'll stop talking for a while. It might be the one good deed I have done in a while...



  • Mood: Guilty
  • Listening to: Random music on my iPod
  • Reading: Dragons: The Myth, Legends & Lore
  • Watching: YouTube videos
  • Playing: Pokemon: White
  • Eating: Cheese Pizza
  • Drinking: Water

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Am I a monster? 

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2 deviants said Yes

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